How To Move On

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I think in order to move on from something – fully move on – you need a complete change of situation.

You have to break habits, push boundaries, escape your comfort zone for a bit.Β And accept that it will hurt, and that it will be painful. I think you have to just breathe through that pain for a while until you can’t feel it anymore. Or at least, feel it less… You know?

I’ve done it several times in life – with friends, with boys, and most importantly, with my body during periods of huge and very rapid changes in weight after struggling with anorexia, bulimia and binge eating.

The more I experience things, the more I realise that. You have to move on. You won’t find happiness in the past, no matter how much you want to. For a very long time post-eating disorder chaos, I shut myself away from the world.

I really felt like I switched off part of myself in order to survive – I barely saw my friends, changed jobs, experienced all sorts of incredible things for work and just banished my social life for about a year and a half.

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I sort of forgot how to human – especially with relationships. I hated talking about my feelings, hated the idea of being touched, hated the idea of relying on someone else. I really do think however that everything happens for a reason. And if something doesn’t work out, then it was never meant to be.

I had my heart broken recently and whilst it was a painful few weeks, it made me realise that you have to keep trying! I won’t be shutting myself away from the world again, but I also won’t be relapsing.

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Back to the present – and the future. Good Things are coming. In fact – perhaps great things have already come.

Sophie x

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